Mood:
downFor the first time since Kevin and I broke up, I feel truly alone. Since that day, I have always been at Jason's or with Jason, and I haven't actually been alone. Tonight I didn't go to Jason's, though not by my own choice. I just haven't heard from Jason more than two texts today. I wonder if maybe he's irritated with me? I don't know, I won't overreact. I finally, truly realize that I am alone. I cannot truly confide in or trust anyone, and no one truly understands me. I thought I had found someone I could trust, someone I could love. I did not. I am alone. It took me a few weeks to fully realize that but now that I have I will never forget it.