I can't just....
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: 3 Days Grace - Let It Die
I feel like somehow I've failed.
Now, let me start at the beginning. Kevin and I broke up. Yesterday. And its only yesterday because its..1:30 am.
I still don't know if its really what I wanted. I do know I want him to be happy and what we were doing was making him absolutely miserable and I can't stand to be the cause of unhappiness for him. But there's the fact that I can't get him off my mind. Just the thought of having lost him brings tears to my eyes. What it comes down to is, I still love him. With all of my heart I still love him. The question is what to do about it. I know right now I won't be able to handle seeing him with or hearing about him being with another girl. Yes thats what I want for him, an amazing girl he can actually see and touch and hold, but it tears me apart to think that it won't be me... I can't do this.